I can hardly believe it’s been exactly one month since we welcomed Lucy Eleanor into our family. Lucy is a laid back little baby with a sweet disposition and the cutest little grunts and squeaks and cries. I can hardly remember life before Lucy, and that’s not just because I’m sleep deprived!
The first month has been both terrifying and delightful, learning how to care for a newborn baby. I’m so thankful we’re beginning to find our groove and I’m gaining more confidence. The first two weeks is a sleepy blur in my memory, a 2-hour cycle of diaper change, nursing, diaper change again, pumping. I cried almost constantly for the first few weeks, sometimes with reason and sometimes without. It’s a life-altering experience to have your heart so completely opened and raw. Every move is measured and every emotion is heightened. The rawness fades, but the love that is left in its place is immeasurable. It’s the hardest thing we’ve ever done, but I long for the rawness and closeness that having a baby created between Allen and I.
At one month, Lucy is sleeping for 3-hour naps, making lots of grunting noises, moving her arms and legs with more control, making faces, raising her eyebrows, and generally being adorable. My confidence in caring for our daughter is growing, holding her, comforting her, nursing her, and even accomplishing household tasks one-handed. Lucy and I are learning to communicate and understand each others’ cues. It’s just the best. And Allen is a great Papabear, always involved and always comforting both me and Lucy I couldn’t be more grateful. We love you, Lucy!
Hand lettering by Jenn Gietzen, Write On! Design